So after biopsies, two rounds of surgery: lumpectomy, lymph node dissections, and an extra fillip: excision of a melanoma on my shin. Implant of a port for chemo.
Chemo: a frontier. Unknowns right, left, forward. Steroid highs, hormone flushes, aliens rumbling around every organ, taste buds blown. Body earthquake.
Flows of kindness, flows of love, from so many. Weeping with the knowledge that this is undeserved.
Weeping with frustration; I'm not the woman I'm used to. This woman is flawed, probably her own fault, by truly bad habits and behavior. No kidding oneself; cells don't lie.
I must take issue with the undeserved part. You deserve love and kindness in abundance!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lynda! I feel it.
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